I Want to Write About More Than Writing

Hello there!

It’s been a while, hasn’t it. So much has happened over these last several months and it feels like life hasn’t really had a chance to slow and just breathe.

So, let’s catch up.

In July of this year, my husband & I welcomed the sweetest little girl who has shown her energetic and infectious personality from day one. Motherhood has been such a precious journey and I love my little bear (her nickname before we found out her gender) so much!

I haven't written much outside of poetry this year. I still look longingly at the stories that grow dusty in my Google Docs, but am patient that one day the time & energy will return.

It’s an odd thing—being so invested in one dream (writing) and then stepping into this new life as homemaker & mother and finding it to be challenging + overwhelming but oh, so rewarding! To hold my sweet girl and on the days where she wants nothing but to nurse is productive still.

I tend to find myself drawn to more natural approaches to life & healing. But in a moderate way. I take beef liver capsules but will treat myself to a coke. I prefer raw milk but sometimes buy our eggs from the gas station. I budget for wholesome, healthy food but more often than not I’m willing to order take-out. All that being said, I had a deep desire to approach birth in its most natural state, and so I decided to do a home birth.

I had the loveliest midwifery team who supported me all through my pregnancy and into postpartum. I read the books, did the exercises, and absorbed all the information I could. I was determined to have this wonderfully entrancing birth. Instead, my daughter was born in a hospital after an emergency c-section (I'll share the full story in a different newsletter). I grieved my experience and the healing has been hard, but she brings such vibrant joy to our lives.

All this to say, I’m not sure this newsletter will stay a “writing” thing. In one facet, no doubt, but as I have expanded & grown, so has my writing. I don’t simply want to write stories. I want to talk birth & babies & my dreams of baking fresh bread. Of sunshine & motherhood & the slow unveiling of growing womanhood. There is so much more than just my stories to write, and I don’t want to hinder myself in this way. So, perhaps, in not focusing on writing, I will write even more.